Wednesday, December 20, 2006
hey jerrahclana and whoever reading this, it's been such a long time since we've last updated! and what is going to happen to this blog once 3rd january comes! which is soon. ah, we're all posted to different schools. but sarah, i'm gonna see you still! (: are you going to join dance? or council. hahaanyway, want to say a big thank you for all the wonderful memories you guys have left me with. i have so much to tell you guys, especially nana and jerlyn! haha cause sarah! you haven't been talking to us at all. the jerrahclana spirit must live on eh.
anyway,i don't quite know what to say already. to jerlyn and christina in uk, don't forget me! (:
it'sonlyus.
Sunday, November 12, 2006
i'm actually blogging!(: don't feel like touching amath just yet. was ;ppking at my hillsong cd just now and i saw this:UNITED WE STAND - it's not supposed to be a clever slogan or a fancy title. this is way better than that. it's a statement, and it's a call to action for the church - US.
all over this big old planet we temporarily call home there is a generation rising up and joining in... living lives that declare the praises of God, and are passionate about bringing hope and answers to a lost and broken humanity.
it's a stand that goes beyond the four walls of our church buildings, and an understanding that there's no time to waste... wherever life and circumstance finds us; day after day it's time to stand up...
standing for truth, love and justice - that's what we are all about. take away the lights, and the cameras, the guitar and the drums and all that goes with it... still the song remains - a song of salvation... a song of freedom... and a song of praise. it's the sound of a generation connecting with their saviour in spirit and truth... being consumed and changed from the inside out - and choosing to live it out.
it's happening all across the earth... and it's getting louder. it's time for us to stand... united in our love for God and our love for all the people... not just in song or intention - but in our action
just thought i might type it out. i would love to type more i think i'm in a blogging mood but on second thoughts i think i'll wait till after exams. press on people only a few more days!(: if you're even reading this
it'sonlyus.
Saturday, November 04, 2006
i'm oddly feeling a little down now. so i'd decided to revive our blog once again since rah's last one. i think it's all the dancing, i'm so tired!yesterday must be one extraordinary day. i went to watch notre dame de paris the musical with phyllis! and the both of us went in jeans and normal top like a normal concert. on our tickets it wrote VIP entrance. however i always thought, aiyah we're just going in through a special entrance, nothing big.
we went there so excitedly. asked around may i know where is the vip entrance. everybody stared at us. WHY! don't we look VIP-ish. well, actually we don't. so alright we reached the vip place. the usher went OH!? VIP? she did not believe that we had that ticket. we went to the formal entrance and got a shock of our lives. the vip entrance was a red carpet treatment into a function room. due to the fact that there were mediacorp artists, there were people taking videos as they walked down the red carpet. it was sooo horrible. we were so scared, looking at their dressing, AND LOOKING AT OURS. it was a whole world of difference. but we couldn't back out. we went in, regardless of people staring at us. phyllis asked me a super funny question "WHO IS YOUR FATHER" coz my dad gave me the tickets. it was funny the way she said it. we were ushered into this super grand room. the ladies were dressed in formal gown. the males were in tuxedos! with bow ties somemore. there at the corner were 2 girls wearing jeans. everybody who walked past us stared.
it was so embarrassing. very.
we got vip seats too of course. though i was still blocked by this lady sitting right in front of me. she kept moving her head for a clearing view. but i did not move mine, because i knew the person behind me would be very irritated too. how considerate can i get!
the musical was great great great. BRILLANT. standing ovation were given. but it was entirely worth it. it's still etched in me! walking out through the special entrance was no better. but we got out.
i complained to my dad on not warning us beforehand. he simply laughed. sigh it was an experience indeed though. i've never been to such formal grand BIG SHOTS occasion before. it can be really cool - if we were dressed properly of course.
haha, jerrrr
it'sonlyus.
Saturday, October 21, 2006
"Today is Saturday, Oct. 21, the 294th day of 2006. There are 71 days left in the year."and the *insert BIG alphabet here* levels have started.
so what did you do today? want to know what i did? okay!
I painted a picture! hahaha. i was meant to go through my chem FYS, which i did.. but then i saw the beautiful set of paints on my desk and i just had that urge, you know!
i seriously have such a short attention span. no wait, short doesnt even come close to describing it. its like non existent. do you think i have adhd?oh dear.
Anyway, man i hope everybody else is working hard. oh guess what! a kitten turned up outside my gate on monday night before the bio prac! haha i spent the whole of that night playing with it. its soooo cute.
ahaha miss ang ku khueh came over to pass me something and my mum asked her to bring the cat home. ahhaa but, good girl jerlyn, she kindly refused! so now i have another cat! yay! but its not helping me study much. adhd remember? hahaa
okay well, its now eleven forty three. and it took me like half an hour, three cups of water and one visit to the toilet to blog this measly paragraph. ahhh. alarm bells are shooting off in my head. goodnight everybody. happy cramming!
-rah!
"I am only one, But still I am one.I cannot do everything,But still I can do something;And because I cannot do everythingI will not refuse to do the something that I can do."
Edward Everett Hale
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Wednesday, October 11, 2006
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JERLYN ANG KU KHUEH!i seriously didn't forget your birthday ok! it's just that i didn't see you in school and everything, aiyar, you know that i know lar and i know that you know (:
anyway, you're 16 already, so erm you've lived 16 years of your life and it's cool to see that you're still surviving and doing really well. haha i'm really proud of you and well, within 16 years, you've achieved so much and i think that you should be very proud of yourself. and i believe you'll continue to be that high achiever! well, i probably won't get to see you when you're 17 but maybe i'll meet you again when you're 27? who knows. just know that i'll really miss you when our school term ends. which is really soon like really really soon.
i had many great times working with you. from all these times, i've learnt that you're really responsible, and you meet deadlines well. you're also really organized and i love working with you. from ltc to dance to longestday, haha i still can't get enough of you! (:
i don't know when you'll ever read this message, but thank you for being all that you are. 16 years, start acting your age jerlyn. haha you're so cute, sometimes you act like you're 80 sometimes you act like you're 2! haha now you're so gonna kill me, i bet i must be the first to say this kind of weird stuff on someone's birthday. ohwell, for the last time this year ever again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY FRIEND.
your very cool friend, and don't you ever forget me.
claire.
it'sonlyus.
Sunday, September 24, 2006
it's 2.40am and what is claire tay doing? blogging haha. that's because i've just finished my literature essays. have i told you how much i detest literature, i just don't get it. i mean it's interesting and all, but under exam conditions, count me out. but how! i'm taking it for olevels and it only knows how to pull my ss marks down. haha annoying literature i hate you you you you know!and sarah, i must say that jerlyn and i haven't had much luck with studying too. i don't know i can stand out of the window like toto chan and the day's gone like that. and i know half the world is out there studying the bum off and i'm staring out of the window, wishing for a better tomorrow. such a bummer right, i know!
and what is prison break? everybody, watch so you think you can dance 2! it's starting next monday and i'm already eyeing on my new target haha. don't worry, i'll stay true to nick lazarrini forever.
so yes, i'm either sleeping, stoning, eating, or sleeping. and i'm not studying, and the self-discipline isn't there. ok, i wouldn't want to be a nerd and study like many many hours in a day because i doubt it is productive. what i want is for me to still have time for myself, but study smart and make sure that that session was uber uber productive. problem is, i can't even find myself seated at one spot before running off to eat or watch tv! oh boy this is getting so so bad.
and sarah, explain your solution cum ppt thing. i don't understand it. till now, hope we find our self-discipline. inside every child, there is self disicipline. haha you can quote me (:
loveyloveylovey claire.
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hey guys! i hope you're all studying really hard!
unlike me.
haha, i don't know just can't seem t focus and everything. i tried doing hist yesterday, didn't get past the policy of appeasement. i think i read that page like five times before i gave up and dumped the book aside. i really hope you guys have had more luck in revision than i have.
i tried to do a study plan for the next month up till the end of o's but then when i finished, i got really tired!
so i read a book.
gah! im such a slacker. ahahahha. and there's like practically nothing to eat in my house that doesn't involve cooking. and im still too lazy to go buy food.. so that means im hungry, i havent studied and im extremely bored right now.
ah!!! i need more self-discipline.
speaking of which..! have you guys seen prison break?? ITS SO GOOD.go go go and watch! thursday at ten! hhaha i've seen up til episode ..17 i think! singapore's too slow. in america they're already showing season two! but its really good.
no wait, don't watch. go and study. tape it or something. but its really good! and its only an hour long. ah. i dont know. stupid exams.
oh and everybody,
Remember, if you're not part of the solution, you're part of the precipitate!
-sarah
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Tuesday, September 19, 2006
hey everyone, i figured that this blog will probably be on a hiatus since everybody's mugging for olevels. and yes, things will probably stay this stagnant till after olevels. prelim results are out and i just don't know what to say. i mean, everybody has their own expectations and all, so i'm not really fit to comment on anything, but to all those who feel discouraged, hang in there!i've had my share of disappointment and all. and i know feeling lousy and discouraged ain't the best feeling one can have. it seems like no matter how hard you've tried, nothing seems to change. it seems like whatever you do, you'll still get 'lousy' grades because you're just not smart enough. and you'll feel discouraged to study harder because you're already way behind others in terms of studies, and no matter how much you do, you'll almost never catch up. to sum it all, you're just so confused and arghh.
prelim results..i didn't do well, and initially i claimed i was satisfied, but honestly i think i wasn't. and after praying about it for quite some time, i've come to realise that things might have turned out way way worse without God's grace. i remember that the mg musical was so close to the prelims, how tired and worried i became etc. but i'm so glad that through it all, God kept His promises. even though we might have failed our expectations and all, i still think we ought to be grateful for His mercy and love.
there's this one thing i believe in. we reap what we sow. i've always imagined Him to be fair and righteous, and will just bless people for their efforts. and i suppose that all i can do now is to study real hard and just use my studies as a sarcrifice to Him. at the end of the day, i seriously don't want to regret not having done enough preparation, but rather to know that i've given off my best, and fall back into the arms of grace. how about you?
claire.
it'sonlyus.
Monday, August 21, 2006
at least sarah, you always had a dream to help those african kids. i have a dream too but it's simple, i just want to help others.i feel a great sense of achievement when i help someone feel good. it's the I JUST MADE SOMEONE FEEL GOOD feeling! perhaps it's my need to feel secure, wanted and loved, which makes me want to share this joy with everyone too. i remember when i was young, i watched those hongkong tv serials (i still do) and i once wanted to be a firewoman, then the CID when they impressed you with their wits and solved the impossible. then i wanted to become this brain surgeon cause of the drop-dead-gorgeous old man doctor in the show. i mean! he saved so many people you know! YOU KNOW!
oh one more thing, i always like to know what others are thinking. i find the human mind so complexed and yet so interesting! and since, for all my life, i've always wanted to know what others are thinking, i've come to realise that i might think too much into what they say. as such, i might be listening to you in a conversation, but actually, i'll be trying match you to the various personalities that i know of. haha i think i'm a freak!
oh yes going back to the drop-dead-gorgeous old man doctor, haha i just like him so much and i want to be as professional as him too! haha maybe next time i can go study medicine, if i ever get in, and then i'll specialise in something, and i'll become the next drop-dead-gorgeous young doctor! haha that'll be a PLUS PLUS cause you see, doctors help people feel better. so it'll be accomplishing both my dream and er you know what i mean.
wow, this seems so exciting! haha but you know what. stupid prelims are first. ah bye bye.
cla.
it'sonlyus.
Sunday, August 20, 2006
ive realised something while listening to this john mayer song..(weird i know..). it's extremely easy for us to criticise those in power. it's like as soon as you are given that position, you are also placed on a stage for the whole world to observe your every move.everyone is guilty of it and ive done it myself a couple of times. its so easy to say that someone isnt doing a good job as a leader. he's not forward looking.. or he's too slow.. or he's too square but have we ever thought what we were to do if we were in his shoes? could we have done a better job?It's one thing to criticise and complain but its not going to solve anything if no action is taken.i think its human nature to always assume the worst in people. I guess the thing about leaders that i admire the most is their courage and absolute fearlessness to subject themselves to all the watching and critical eyes of everyone and truly comit themselves wholeheartedly into something they really belive in,good or bad.haha, i've always had this weird childhood fantasy of stopping school in JC and going abroad to do social work and help little kids in Africa or something. i always thought it would be the most fulfilling thing, dont you think? yes, but the idea of it is just pretty absurd i guess. i dont know, maybe im a coward, too afraid to put my thoughts into action. ha. i hope someday to put aside my fears and go for it, at least once in my lifetime...just to see how it feels.
sigh, anyway my point is that i guess that i should just learn to see the good in people, to put myself in their shoes and everyone else should do so to. im sorry, i just heard something a few days ago about my very good friend that just bugged me because people dont seem to appreciate what she does and understand how difficult it is to balance friendships amongst other things.
i mean, nobody's perfect, but it doesnt mean that we should stop trying.
-rah.
it'sonlyus.
Saturday, August 12, 2006
all the colours of the rainbowall the voices of the wind
every dream that reaches out
that reaches out to find what love begins
every word of every story
every star in every sky
every corner of creation
lives to testify
for as long as i shall live i will testify the love
i'll be your witness in the silence is when words are not enough
with every breath i take i'll give thanks to God above
for as long as i shall live i will testify the love
i love this song to bits. thanks to rachel for sending it to me! hahah it means so much!
lately, i've been watching several news and shows. and you know, the world is becoming really scary. and i think it's not only Mother nature that's destructive. but humans ourselves! we can't already control the destructive forces of world. why do we still want to harm others why must there be evil thoughts in our mind! all those mindless wars! there's no purpose in that! what do they gain in the end?! nothing! just the satisfaction of having a war. it's senseless. what's worst, lately i realized that so many people around me are also doing senseless things to harm other people. you know they say that "trouble comes out of one's mouth" (direct translation from chinese hah) and how true. people often don't think twice before they speak and they say such horrible things about others that you know when that innocent one hears it, how devastating it would be to her! i mean i saw all these things, heard of these things, it's really harmful. and boy did she cry so badly. and when i saw all these happening, i just thought how scary people can really be. they don't realize that they are hurting else, and it's bad. really.
oh! and there were news on babies who have like a body with 2 heads, or a body a head, and another parasitic head. i was so freaked out and was really wondering why are they so many of such incidents occuring in the world lately! i mean the poor babies! i was horrified when i saw pictures of them. they are so pitiful! how i wish i could do something to help them!! i'm so glad that some of them are saved, but many others with such cases don't survive. i really really really hope that such things won't happen again! because the child would suffer so much, and one would have to suffer in that expanse of the other child's survival. gosh it pains me.
so well, i hope everybody have a good day, jerr : (
it'sonlyus.
Saturday, August 05, 2006
i really agree so much with you rah. time's passing way too fast, that i can't even catch up. the days are running shorter by the hour, we'll look back and realize this was all we had.all started when jerrahclana were shortlisted for interview, and as i recall, it was the very day after voting. seriously, i didnt expect my name to be found on that piece of paper, furthermore, i fell ill and wasn't present in school that day. i seriously must have left a really bad impression, fancy not turning up for the interview. but who cares, i'm just glad to have gone through so much with dance comm 05/06.
this year has been really so eventful for the dance club. and i dare say that this year has been my most eventful year as a dance club member. from dance camp, dance night, to esplanade, musical and sec4 farewell. if not for dance, i'll have never seen nana has her most loser moment. i would miss all the crushes jer had on ______ HAHA. i would certainly not have found out that sarah loves chocolate balls. see!
having stepped down from the prefect duties, dance comm, all other committements, i actually am rather relived. now, my goal is clear to me, to study all i can for the coming prelims and olevels. in the past, it wasn't as simple because there were many things we always had to do. and your energy just had to disperse into so many different areas. haha but now, i'm like the light ray, that travels in a straight line to form an image. haha i think that's too much physics. you know, there are too many things i can't express here, but if only you knew how i felt. i'm off to my nerd self again.
always and always,
cla.
it'sonlyus.
Friday, August 04, 2006
HEY GUYS!haha. wah. i havent posted anything for ages! :) thanks claire for the nice founders day picture. i think things are moving way to fast. i dont know, going for the interviews today sorta got me thinking, remember a year ago guys? four of us, well three, cos claire was sick, were like anxiously waiting outside the conference room for our turn to go in. its like we've come full circle right. the new dance comm will be announced soon and we won't be in it! everything is just like flying by... rmb our dance gathering last year? the sleepover.. then dance camp, dance night,esplanade, musical and then our farewell. haha, its all over! i dont know whether to feel sad, happy or relieved.
its really been so much fun working in this dance comm. i think jer did an awesome job in making us feel so bonded and together, you know? and claire and nana you guys were really great too. i think that the four of us have really grown so much and im just so thankful that i got to work with you this yearbecause if i didnt, i wouldnt have gotten to know you guys this way. haha remember camp? the ice cream photos and the chocolate balls? ahahah and the apple. sigh.
i really hope that the next dance comm will be as close as us if not closer and really work not just as a team but as friends for the next year. i think all of them can do it! :)
a whole year in the dance club as a vice pres has taught me alot. And although sometimes, it was rough just trying to get by and we did face some really tough times, like alot of tough times..,i am SO GLAD that we all stuck together, leaned on each other and pushed our way through. i dont know how to phrase it exactly, but im just so happy. so so so happy with what we did as a dance club this year. it really has been very fulfilling. aiya, you guys rock la!
sigh. loveyou jerclana!! :)
-RAH!
it'sonlyus.
Thursday, July 27, 2006
the musical has been fantastic so far, and i'm very pleased with myself. even though for the past few months, yes there were times when i regretted joining the musical, but i've banished that thought forever! because the musical's simply fantasic. even though the dancers are just playing this small role in it, but it's all these small roles that piece it together and make it complete. i'm really amazed to see God's hands working through this musical, and for those who haven't seen it, you're missing out BIG TIME.jerlyn says : I love founders day even though the 75 bucks wasn't worth it coz the food was pretty erm normal. However, i love the friends i had with me that day, we just had great fun. Musical is killer though it can be fun, at times. I somehow doubt it when people say that we're really good, i've no idea why. But anyway, i feel so overwhelmed with everything!
also! it's just been 3 days, and i've taken nearly 200photos. it's funny how we enjoy taking both glam and unglam photos, and now that i've so many, i really don't know what to do with them! haha memories sake i guess! haha maybe i'll go upload the photos then you guys can view them if you want, but there's simply TOO MANY. maybe i'll upload after my prelims. speaking of which, i'm still pretty nervous with prelims nearing. but i must say that i work better under pressure, and i'll feel more accomplished if i know that i handled both my cca and studies well, but pray that i've have the strength and discipline to do that.
and you know, i'm simply just so amazed with everything that God has created. suddenly, my life's been filled with much meaning yet again, something which i haven't felt for a really long time. i doubt many of you will read this post, but whatever. and yes, to God be the glory for everything. i will really like to believe that everything will be perfect as long as we try our best, because God will do the rest. right?
haha this post is SO LONG. and yup! i'll really miss all these photo taking sessions, all the retarded things we did together. i'm sure that my secondary school days will be one of the best times of my life. and you know what? there's just nothing i can say to express it, may we treasure the time we have left(: I LOVE YOU GUYS.
it'sonlyus.
Friday, July 21, 2006
oh am i tired! rehearsals every night from wednesday to sunday! it's madness having to sleep so little, and still trying to pay attention in class. i can hardly concentrate, and these headaches are coming to me more often.anyway, let me become a nerd overnight. i'm the only one blogging, shows that i'm not studying haha. but i want, i'm willing to study, but the flesh isn't. and there's so little time left! i know i won't do that well for prelims, i've got this feeling. anyway, claire's your new found nerd.
claire.
it'sonlyus.
Saturday, July 01, 2006
warning: this is a depressing post. if you can't take it, please do not read.FAILURE: The condition of not achieving or falling short of the desired end or expectations, by dictionary.com
i hate it when i fall short of expectations, be it myself or others. it leaves me feeling unaccomplished and hopeless. failure for me, used to be something that made me feel as if it was me against the world. it used to make me so depressed that i'll motivate myself to study harder. but having grown so immune to failure now, it has led me into seeing failure from a totally different perspective.
now failure for me, appears to be something that causes you to lower your expectations of yourself, because you know that success is too late. i don't know why, but i can hardly shed a tear now, when i chance upon failure. now, i'll look at it, chuckle over it, and then chuck it away. and it's not normal because, in the past, i've easily cried buckets whenever i failed.
it's especially disheartening to know that you've tried your best, and you still fail. if 'not trying your best' = failure, and 'trying your best' = failure isn't it just common sense to see that failure = moments when you are 'trying your best' or 'not trying your best'. see, i told you success is too late.
as i mentioned in my previous post, we've been getting pep talks everyday. i know to some, these talks appear nonsensical and a complete waste of time. but strangely, to me, these talks actually encourage me and make me want to study harder [afterall, that's the main reason why they have pep talks].
one more thing, i feel really bad when i get this impression that the teachers are trying harder than you even are. i mean, at the end of the day, they're not the ones taking the examinations right? -cla
it'sonlyus.
Friday, June 30, 2006
claire is blogging(:jer, since you've comforted yourself, now it's my turn! i've seen most of my midyear results already, and to be honest, it really really sucks. i remember the glorious days in primary school when we all aimed to hit 'band one'. now, i just aim to pass. see the difference?
seriously, it's already so late and tomorrow's the first day of july. and i'm still failing my subjects. my results weren't at all fantastic, seriously. if i'm not wrong, i think i failed close to three subjects? yes, that many. and i don't dare calculate my L1R5, the number will probably be so huge that you'll need a calculator to calculate it! THAT BAD!
but it's really God's grace that i actually passed certain subjects. i think i hardly studied for the exams. i remember at that time, we had dance night and because i was lazy, i hardly studied. and i'm so easily distracted that's why i think i shouldn't study at home. the bed, the computer, the tv, even the fridge! haha these things make me so distracted that i just can't concentrate! take for example, what i'm doing now.
oh oh, let me tell you something. there was this thing that happened yesterday and it made me feel so so dumb, stupid and useless. poor claire was so discouraged and upset that she went home immediately after school, and vent her anger on her boyfriend, Harry, actually it's her amaths tys. and it is really amazing because she hates amaths, mainly because she suck at it. haha. but she actually found the tys questions enjoyable! HAHA. IS SHE COOL OR WHAT!
i think i need some form of motivation, and no, chanting A1 A1 actually doesn't help. i keep thinking that however much i study, i'll still fail. really! and i'm just amazed how the teachers haven't given up on me yet. maybe they will, soon, because i'm about to give up anytime, anywhere.
it'sonlyus.
Thursday, June 29, 2006
hey kiddos (rahclana) and/or other sec4s who might read this,don't be discouraged by our mid years results! as much as it could have been the worst you've ever done and you feel that you're letting yourself, your parents, your teachers and God down.
but hey, what can we do right? it's over.
all we can do now is start working hard now. we've still got our prelims and O's! and that's the important one. our horrible mid years can be a working motivation ain't it!
so... LET'S GET IT STARTED!
to all, let's work hard together. to prove that we CAN DO IT! and to glorify our father.
cheerios all sec4s.
(actually i'm more of consoling of myself haha, i seem to be the only one doing horrible, and trying to tell myself that it's okay..)
go go go! jer
it'sonlyus.
Sunday, June 25, 2006
CLAIRE HAS FOUR NEW BOYFRIENDS!haha believe me, i've FOUR newly found boyfriends. let me introduce you to my new loves. 1) HARRY, my amaths tys 2) HENRY, my emaths tys 3) CHRIS, my physics textbook 4) LEO, my chem textbook
they're my new found motivation. i'm gonna write love notes on them, touch them, smell them, and their love will follow me wherever i go, and finally, i'll kiss them goodbye at the end of the year.
i've finally realised why i LOVE sleeping so much. sleeping makes me feel so loved and just so comfortable! i love my pillow, it's my best friend. and when you're asleep, you have really sweet dreams or just really strange nightmares. but when you wake up, i know i had fun. and whatever mood i'm in, sleep cures it all, haha.
it'sonlyus.
Heyaaarrr lovely ladieeeeesssss!!!
how ya doin! :)
haha i see claire and jer have been busy busy updating eh. sorry i havent done much updating recently. i dont know why. i havent been particularly busy really. but it feels almost as if these holidays, our LAST june hols as students of MGS, havent even started. sigh. im feeling sad.
i ahvent written the speech thing yet for the farewell. theres like so much to say but somehow i cant really organise my thoughts and stuff. its definitely going to be tough leaving right?
haha jerclana you guys still ahve the musical! but next month is definitely going to be busy busy. things are flying by way too quickly right? and i like didnt even do much studying during the hols. i just finished my lit essay. im so proud of myself. i stayed up till three to come up with the first draft, and its 1340 words long! yayay.
oh jer, i havent planted the egg yet. ive been meaning to but dont know keep forgetting to do it. i opened the cover and it said in nice big bold letters "BE WISHING BEFORE OPEN!". ahahahaa. cute eh?
oh btw, the world cup has been a blast! GOOOOO GERMANY! :)
it'sonlyus.
Saturday, June 24, 2006
CLAIRE IS IN DA' HOUSE!i think stressing over the prelims have made me a little kuku, but then again, i think i'm always normal so i can't be that abnormal. now did that make sense? and jerlyn ang chee kueh! haha your previous post is so so so, YOU!
anyway, i'm alittle upset that the holidays are coming to an end, but then again, this is my last year in secondary school and i really have to make use of every minute of it! i want to enjoy my last year in mgs cause i think i'll just miss this school so much! TEN YEARS, school's just been fantastic, and so has dance club! (: ah speaking of which, i know sec4 farewell is super super soon, and time will FLY pass us once again, and you know what dancers! i will REALLY miss you guys, every single one of you matter so much to me!
it's just generations after generations, and i guess it's all part of growing up. but i don't want to grow up just as yet. i still want to remain the childish me and just laugh and have fun! but i know the world isn't like that, the world's full of competition and whatever. and that's why i still want to feel small, young and all, but ah, shut up claire, get a life will you!
ok so prelims and olevels are coming, great. and i'm really quite stupid, i can't even pass amaths! and i'm doing so badly in chem! and physics. and geog? and suddenly, emaths? i think i suck. and all this is really really annoying me, and i just feel like giving up already! JER RAH NA, you all are WAYYYY smarter than me, and it's sad cause i really don't get how you guys can just do so well in exams. maybe i haven't tried my best, cause i've been too distracted. ok now all claire needs ot do is STUDY HER HEAD OFF and just make God proud of me.
it'sonlyus.
Friday, June 23, 2006
nobody blogged! why why! then this would make me seem like a compulsive blogger which is true coz i think i'm the one who blogs the most. i'm trying to make this ALIVE okay.anyway. here goes nothing.
exams are coming up, everybody's getting stressed, one way or another. but admidst this stressful period, do stop and reflect. think about your day how you've helped contribute to this society. be it, doing a filial job of helping your mother wash the dishes or putting a smile onto a crying passer-by's baby's face. is cooping up in your room day and night studying doing you good? what if you get so saturated with information that your brain clogs and you can't sit for the exams! (that is such a bimbotic expression, but really)
well, do also spend time with God. we know how much studying and doing well gets into our heads that we forget that it is God who sees us through this.
don't forget, to also spend time with your family and friends. certificates and results do not stay in your heart forever, your family and friends do. (did that make sense?)
this post is really so random. but sometimes that thought do pass. is a certificate really all that important? a world with certificates but no love. how is that bearable!!!
love, jer
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Thursday, June 08, 2006
i was feeling so moody and sick and grahh yesterday! and thus due to several reasons i did not go school today. this must be the first time i missed lessons since forever. i've got calls from jing and phyllis, and i thought it was really sweet of them. yesterday i wrote in my diary how i thought nobody would realize my absence even if i'm gone. (ahaha all that moodyness!) so i woke up real late. and then i went downstairs to watch tv and eat. there was no programmes to watch and i was getting bored plus not to mention guilty for not going to school. suddenly i heard a loud knock on my windows. wahlah, i got a shock of my life. seeing jing and caoyu desperately waving to me and shouting "open the door open the door" i was so surprised i just refused to open the door, i sat there staring at them. hahha but duh i did in the end and caoyu appeared with a vitaminC sweet in her hand, and said happy recovery. haha!they made so much noise. we were watching some diving competition. amanda tiff and cao were like bravo bravo, and they were like giving a standing ovation. haha, after that they did a kallang wave. the three of them. it was hilarious. phyllis, jing, mary and me were just staring at them, dumbfounded, and laughing uncontrollably! then they said they wanted to spot check my room, what in case got guys hiding there. yunjing commented "quick quick, look under the sofa!" haha. it was just so funny.
thank you phyllis, jing, mary, amanda, tiffany, cao! you guys are just so sweet to come by my house when i was feeling so down! friends are really precious to me. valuable friends like them!
vitaminC, jerrr
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Saturday, June 03, 2006
i just ate pop pop. it is a kind of sweet that goes "pop pop, pop pop pop pop, pop pop, POP!" it is really nice, i love sweets! explains why i'm so sweet. my brother and sister are talking about some really incomprehensible insurance thing. they are merely 3 and 5 years old than me. i feel so ignorant. there are seriously alot of things that i so do not know! like claire, i don't even know what social science means? oh dear. all i know is, superficial school work, superficial dancing, and superficial love. but yet, i'm still so happy with all that superficial-ness. haha. what the heck. i'm just taking things so easy! and i'm losing so many things you know. i'm losing my friends, and i'm losing my hair! muahaha. oh no, i'm balding! i need some hair growth thingy so i won't bald and look like a bald eagle! and oh yes i'm so in love! so so so in love. haha, i'm so fickle minded i've like 3 cute guys now! i never expected them to be so cute, but they really are! i'll introduce them to you if you ask me! i really will, i'm selfless and i'll share this love with you! alright, those reading this must be thinking that i'm how eeky, but nah i'm not. i'm still as innocent and harmless and nice :) my friend said that i'm high now. i think i am. must be the pop poppoping away, jerrrr
it'sonlyus.
ah i'm seriously feeling alittle emo today. returned from musical practice and it suddenly occured to me that my studies have been going down ever since i thought that having fun in life was more important. you might see me having so much fun laughing and teasing everybody, but deep down, i know i've changed alot. i used to do so well in my studies but at that time i was really annoying cause i kept going on about my studies 24/7.
now i've changed, for the better or worst - i dont know. i wanted to do social science next time and i always thought my parents are quite supportive of what i do cause they don't really care as long as i stay morally good and don't break any law. yet i found out like recently, that my mom doesn't want me to do social science. and here am i thinking, isn't it my interest and yet they're like forbidding it? it just doesn't make sense to me. and nevermind, the other thought that prelims are so freaking near and i'm no where on par with my classmates, ah i might as well go die now.
maybe i should stop trying to stay so happy. i don't like being unhappy cause your mood kind of influences the others around you? and i want to be more like the kind of person that relives others of their worries or something, but i'm like digging my own grave. ok that sounded really bad and serious.
and yes, we were talking about it that day. it makes sense to go to the same jc for both first three months and after that. i mean we wouldn't want too much change right? i know i prefer things to be stable rather than having to fit into a whole new environment. but this means my prelims will have to be same as my olevels. means i gotta work hard now. and how is this 2months 1 week 1 day going to be enough for me to even pass. great i'm in deep trouble now.
being really unhappy,
cla :(
it'sonlyus.
Thursday, June 01, 2006
EVERYBODY!(: ESPLANADE PICTURES BELOW(:
wasn't it exciting, for more, click below:
http://share.shutterfly.com/action/welcome?sid=8QcNmLZuybsKK
and if shutterfly's abit blur, then ask me for the clear big sized ones, email me below:
clatay22@hotmail.com
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Wednesday, May 31, 2006
haha ok i've moved our posts so now you can read it so clearly!(: i'm so IT savvy. haha. claire i moved the tb too to be in front of my face but it kind of covers yours too change it if you want. i have nothing to blog since all 3 have been talking abt esplanade. blogging is so tedious. i'd rather practice one last breath on the guitar(: byebye.CLAIRE UPLOAD AND SEND ME THE ESPLANDE PICS SOON
-thewonderfulchristina
it'sonlyus.
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
ESPLANADE is so fabulously fantastically cool. do you know the nametag calls us ARTIST. we sound so professional haha. kudos to all who performed yesterday, i know all the changing dancing laughing starving was almost unbearable but i must say, i know we all did well.oh honey, what boo-ha i made yesterday during prayer. haha i still think it's so funny. i prayed for numbness on Meibin's foot! haha NUMBNESS. also, i'll upload the pictures and if you want them, add me on msn clatay22@hotmail.com i took alot alot alot and we all look SO PRETTY in it, except NANA. ugly nana. you know this girl, she has only blogged TWICE and this is called a SHARED blog. beat that.
i'm so glad that it's the holidays now, though it seriously doesn't feel like the holidays. i probably failed my subjects, and that's the reason for the ticker timer on this blog. i just couldn't resist it, especially after my emath paper. what i thought was so confident failed BUT OHWELL(:
to ben's girls (sounds wrong):
thank you all for bearing with CLAIRE's naggings all the time. CHERILYN you have been great with all the relay system and getting of the radios! and yes YILING i know you miss ben alot. but ESTHER will miss him more haha. really appreciate MEIBIN for being so courageous and brave to dance despite your swollen ankle, and sorry that i prayed for numbness in your leg. VANESSA LOW looks superb in the dance you know, her lead with the hips is simply awesome. CHARMAINE for constantly trying to smile even though you know we looked nuts. SOPHIA i remember how much you like the fish-nets haha. DEBORAH for always helping us strive for perfection haha with her keep in the middle of the middle blocks. VANESSA LEUNG for always being so retarded. SHARONA for being such a star on stage, even though the hat is too huge for the small you. GABRIELLE for keeping all the black smelly hats, appreciate it loads. and i know you want to share ben with esther. go ahead girl.
lastly, thanks for staying together as ONE.
it'sonlyus.